dislocate my heart

today I talked with a wise lady who suggested I ask god to dislocate my heart. as in, pray about what I'm passionate about in ministry. with loving people. but I'm a little bit afraid to. because I know he'll answer. perhaps in a very big way. those sorts of challenges are always just freaky enough to keep me on my toes with the sort of passion I'm lacking right now. they're big enough to trust him with. and small enough to look back on later and think "of course."